Not really. :) But yes,it’s a pseudonym. It’s probably going to get some getting used to, however. Someone may write to me and say, “Hey Ruth!” and I’m probably going to go: “Huh, who’s Ruth?”

This blog was created because I needed a safe place to talk about my walk … as a Christian … as a woman … as a Malaysian.

I have another blog – with it’s own domain etc. However, lately, some of my colleagues have been reading it. My family too! -_-”

I get really uncomfortable when my sister or father comments on my blog. It makes me realise that I’m being watched! And recently, some of my colleagues have used some of my posts, trackbacked to it, and when I read the post, they’ve written nasty things about other people (or me!!) because of it!!

Nothing can be more saddening to me than having one of my posts used like that. And that said blogger wrote about her sister, calling her pathetic, a fool, an idiot … it grieves my heart that a post about forgiveness can be used to bash a family member like this. (cries)

(Actually, I thought it was about me because the post had a lot of details and quotes that sounded a lot like what I said to this person before. But she insisted it wasn’t. I still have a hard time believing her and am staying away from her now!)

Some of my posts have resulted in some colleagues being offended with me. As a result, this colleague is giving me the cold shoulder, and worse, I suspect she’s talking about me behind my back because her boyfriend, who is also working at the office, is giving me the cold shoulder.

As a result … I just don’t have much joy blogging in my other blog anymore. I can’t say what I want without watching my back. It’s a sad state of affairs. I wish I had stayed anonymous. ;| Oh well, what’s done is done!

So hello everyone! My name is Ruth.